So, last night we ate dinner at Buca. My mom and sister hadn't been so we reserved the table in the kitchen which was not as fun as one might think. Dinner was delicious, though. Lots of food.
Then this morning I strted taking zoloft, which I have mixed feelings about. Those of you who know me know that I am not crazy about SSRIs in most cases. Yes, they are beneficial, but--well, this is not an argument I want to get into right now. Let's take this offline, why don't we?
Anyway, I've always been able to get out of a depression on my own with pure will power, attitude, and moxie. That hasn't worked so far so a little over two months ago I made the very difficult decision to go see a mental health professional. Long story short I'm on an SSRI right now. I'm all about instant gratification and apparently this will take a little while to work. I'm in an ok mood today, but I suspect it has little to do with pharmaceuticals.
Hopefully I won't feel as lonely in a few weeks. Well, I will probably still feel lonely, but maybe it won't bother me as much.
I just think it will make me a differnt person and I don't care for that. i've seen people who take them and their personalities change. Sure, many find my personality repellent, but I don't want people to like fake Leah.