in the interest of FULL disclosure I should probably share some of the details about running into the most recent ex-boyfriend this weekend. Here are some random thoughts:

* He looks pretty bad. The sour grapes side of me should love this, but the sensitive me does not. He assured me he'd been back on the exercise track so maybe the next few times I see him he'll be looking better. Then I wondered if he thinks the same about me, seeing as I've kind of let myself go over the last few months (laziness? depression? either way it's weight gained, muscle tone lost).
* We recapped our lives apart over the last several months in about the same amount of time we'd spend recapping our days every evening when we were together.
* Even though I've been out and have dated a few fellows I can still get a little bit jealous when I see him talking to a pretty girl.
* Mentioning the podcast might not have been the best idea, but I doubt he remembers talking about it, and if he does, I doubt he'll find if (if you did, then hi. Just don't listen to any shows except #16!).
* Some of his friends still greet me the way they did when we were together, but some apparently didn't know how to react, giving me a bit of a confused cold shoulder.
* I don't know what's going to happen next. I would imagine more of the same, only without me being terrified of running into him in public.