I had one of those recent freak outs related to my own mortality. Yes, in which I am so paralyzed with fear that there is little I can do other than hyperventilate. I know this happens to you and if you tell me otherwise I will know you aren't telling me the truth. No matter how sturdy your faith there will be a time of doubt.

So that night I had an odd dream where someone who has passed away comforted me. My hand was held, I was reassured. I woke up with an overwhelming feeling of peace.

And, oddly enough, that person was Arthur "Killer" Kane, bassist of the New York Dolls. Honestly, I think either the higher power or my subconscious (depending on how you look at it) has a great sense of humor.



So this brings up an interesting point. As you may or may not know, Kane joined the LDS church before his death. There's actually a great documentary about him called "New York Doll." I highly recommend. So either Heaven is full of punk rockers or Mormons. Really, either can be sucessfully argued.

Labels: dreams

Starts with a lackluster brunch that featured delicious $3 mimosas. It's a new enterprise in a new development. Everyone else at the table enjoyed it, I thought my omelette was lacking and the offerings were nothing to get excited about.

My DVR is set to pick up "Beavis and Butthead" when it airs. This morning I woke up with three hours worth! It's still funny, although the humor is slightly lessened by the fact that I've seen every episode dozens of times. It also reminded me how crappy music was back in the mid-nineties. Seriously.

Did I mention that yesterday i finished my final project for sculpture class? Well, for the most part. I've got some trimming to do Wednesday and THEN it's done. I'm happy with it. Thanks to all who helped (a more tangible thanks will be on the way later on. Unfortunately while finishing the project I missed a call from Angi and family (it's ok--I talked with them tonight).

Ice Cream Crankin was just as good as always. This year I stuck with the fruitier flavors and they didn't disappoint (well, some did). We, being Presbyterians, embrace the alcohol rather than avoid it and two of the flavors contained alcohol. They weren't just gimmicky either--they were actually delicious. Most interesting flavor was probably Veggietales, which is probably what you're thinking it is. My favorite was a tart, delicious lemon I tasted early on.

Can't remember my dream from last night, though I do vaguely remember having one.

Labels: dreams, food, school

i'm in bed and flash seems to be gassy. that means stinky. for a small dog he has some terribly stinky gas.

Today was the roller girls carwash to benefit Robyn's Nest, and animal rescue. We raised a lot of cash for them! It was hot though, and I am a tad sunburnt. Afterward I got to see Mandy for a bit which is always fun.

If you live in Nashville I have to recommend Dulce Desserts. Their Boston Creme Pie cupcake tastes like a chocolate dipped ice cream cone. Yum!

Last night I dreamed that my favorite lingerie store started selling clothes and had a closeout sale. great prices! unfortunately in wakefulness my favorite boutique didn't quite have the great prices the dream store did. Still, they have some crazy lovely clothes. I hope to save a bit of cash and go back.

Also dreamed that I was hanging out with Unknown Hinson. That was a bit strange.

Labels: dreams, roller derby

I've been feeling slightly under the weather all weekI was SO worn out that I knew at 6:30 I wouldn't be awake much longer. sure enough, I was in bed at 7 and asleep around 7:30 (by my guess). It was a fitful night, but I dreamed about a close relative being addicted to cocaine. That made me angry so I ran off and found an old whorehouse. Well, old in establishment but modern in design. Anyway, the crappy economy was causing them to lose business so the front of the place was a shop that sold marital aids and exotic snacks. It was actually a cute looking place.

Labels: dreams

I'm having some issues with dizziness and nausea. I'm pretty sure it's related to snri withdrawal but it was keeping me from working effectively. Anyway.

Denny woke me up at 4am panting heavily, licking at the air, and with his tail pointing directly at the ground. All signs pointed to the poops so I ran him outside where he proceeded to chew on grass and clover, this means I was off and he had an upset stomach. Poor doggie and all that but he could've vomited inside. So I take him in the house and point him to the water bowl where he drinks two bowls of water and the panting, etc stops. Dog only wanted water which annoys the crap out of me, he's got a nice water bowl upstairs that he won't touch because it makes a loud noise. Scaredy cat dog. Anyway, water was all he needed.

Still, it's kind of good that he woke me up when he did, I was having a terrible dream about an armed attack at a roller derby bout. I can usually get myself out of a bad dream but not this time. I thought about just staying up but no, I ended up falling back asleep. Do you know what's on TV at 4am? Full House, that's what.

Oh, and let me talk for a minute about the wonder of Heroes. Sure, it's SUCH an X Men rip off but damn if it isn't fun. Every episode has at least one "holy crap" moment, one breath holding moment, and it's always lots of fun. Where is my Hiro action figure????

Labels: denny, drama, dreams, television

I had this dream that on my way home from derby practice (yes, I was sweaty and gross) I stopped in a western wear store for a pair of boots. While I'm there the shop gets raided for being a front for a whorehouse. I get taken in in my disheveled state and get mugshotted and printed just as one would, even though I was guilty of no crime they had no way of knowing that.

Samantha, here's the part you'll find most interesting: as this is going on my dream mind wondered if this would end up on fark.

Labels: dreams

So, over the past few nights I've had weird dreams about explosive family dynamics. Granted, things haven't been so explosive since medication was introduced into the mix. That's not being funny, that's being real. A certain family member started taking medication for psychological issues which made things easier.

Also, I met Barack Obama who wasn't as tall as you'd expect. I met him on an elevator.

Labels: dreams

I mentioned the movie dreams, right? THey keep going. In the past week there was a comedy about a snooty youth group and a ragtag bunch of underdogs coming together to triumph. Then there's the one about the trans man which is so convoluted and goes against everything being trans is that I don't even care to share.

Indeed, I also dreamed that I auditioned for Jesus Christ Superstar at a local megachurch. But wait....I was auditioning for the role of Herod. I would have also accepted the role of Judas.

They can't all be winners.

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I can't get away from work. I had a dream that my boss gave me the assignment to figure out how to more efficiently use human capital and office space. I told her to change the clinic hours (which would also allow us to serve the night shift every day instead of just once a month) and allow folks to work three twelves. And then we went to krispy kreme.

Did you know that in my dream state's krispy kreme they still have devil's food donuts? and the hot light is always on.

Labels: dreams, food